why do i write?

I've loved writing since I was a little girl. Laying on my grandparent's carpet floor, creatively jotting down a new story, complete with felt-tip illustrations and held together with a staple in one corner.
From then on, I wrote 'books' for my Granddad. There was a poetry book, a book about a Victorian girl, a book about what I'd do if I had lots of different jobs (space-girl, chef, painter...) and finally a 100-page futuristic fairy-tale book that never got finished. My Granddad died when I was 13, and my creative writing died too. I didn't write anything other than school work and diary entries after that. 

.... until recently...

Over the last few years, when my mind is full of lots of little things - worldly observations, worries, long to-do lists - writing has been an escape and an expression. It's enabled me to focus on just one thing, which had been incredibly valuable at times. 

Writing, especially on this blog, has enabled me to share my faith. For me, the 'Just Prayers' post was a brave and new thing to do. In the past, I haven't written anything like that as I've been full with fear that I'll unintentionally write something that goes against common theology, something that doesn't really make sense. I thought, "I'm just a kid, I can't write anything like that". 

A dream of mine is firstly, to reach 1000 views on this website. I'm currently averaging at 15 per week - so I've got a while to go. Secondly, is to win an award for my writing. Finally, a dream is to write an interview with one of my top inspirations.

On the 25th August 2016, I stood in my school's office opening a white envelope with my GCSE results inside. When I got to 'English Literature', my brows furrowed in confusion, then a massive grin spread across my face as I looked to my, also grinning, English teacher. I had got an A* in English Literature (the only one in my year to do so) and a B in English Language. A Level results day is edging nearer and nearer, and I hope to open the envelope on the 16th August 2018 and see a B next to English Literature. 

I write because it's an escape, an expression, a way of processing my thoughts. I write as a form of evangelism, and I write because I love to and I'm good at it.

- Rebecca